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“If I Survive This, We Should Get Married”
Before the Surgery
The morning of my surgery began with a silence that felt heavier than usual. Hospitals have a particular kind of quiet—never truly empty, never truly still. Machines hum softly, curtains shift, distant footsteps echo down linoleum corridors. But that morning, everything felt muffled, as if the world had turned down its own volume just for me.
The kind of surgery where everyone tells you, “It’s routine,” but no one actually looks you in the eye when they say it.
My husband had dropped me off that morning. He didn’t come in with me. He said he had work calls he couldn’t miss, that he’d come by after I was settled. He kissed my forehead quickly, like a task to be completed, and left me at the entrance with a wave that didn’t quite reach his eyes.
People cope differently, I thought. Stress makes everyone strange.
Still, as I was rolled through the hospital corridors, I kept checking my phone. Not for medical updates. For something else. Something warmer.
It wasn’t long. Just a single text.
For a moment, I thought I had misread it. My brain refused to process the words in order. I read it again. Then again. Each time, the sentence stayed the same, as if it had been carved into the screen.
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